Last night I had a dream that I think was all about humility. At the beginning of the episode, I was a king hosting a large party at a beautiful home near the ocean. Waves started crashing and the water rose to the level of the house. Boats started crashing toward the home. Before being destroyed the scene changed to a new environment. Each new scene provided a new puzzle or a doom-filled scenario. I maintained throughout the dream that I had all the answers… if I only opened the door and ran away, I would be safe. I was a king. Every time I opened a door or tried to do my best to escape to safety another door would close in front of me.
I woke up in the middle of the night tossing and turning from the dream trying to wonder what meaning it had for me. Was it a vision of what hell is like? Is that ultimate suffering?
A discovery! It is! According to the Mystery of Suffering and Death text, hell can be now and hell can be forever. It is a state from which and for which nothing can escape. It is total annihilation from God.
In the waking hours, I began to process the dream a bit more. I feel like its primary lesson is about connection and community. We are social beings who need connection and support from our earliest days of existence. A baby cannot survive without her mother. Why do we assume that as we grow older we do not need anyone to help or support us in order to survive? Or why do we expect that other people do not need our attention or concern? Why are we taught from a young age that we determine our self-worth independent of other people? In this way, I think that we are taught more about how to receive and less how to give. I am reminded of Simone Weil who has written about attention and connection, “Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity.”
In our society, we become alien to each other with each passing grade in school. I obtain a grade that represents me to the world. It is a grade that I must own. It is not attributed to the effort of the teacher or the school system or my parents or my peers that may have supported me. That grade continues to represent me throughout school despite how many other people along my educational journey may have impacted that journey. Along with grades I am represented by test scores. All of these measures of learning treat me as if I am a singular entity separate from the universe around me and from the people around me. Isn’t the message of the eucharist and Catholic identity about a sense of unity around love. This quote of St. Therese Of Lisieux is included in ALL CAPS in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, “LOVE, IN FACT, IS THE VOCATION WHICH INCLUDES ALL OTHERS; IT’S A UNIVERSE OF ITS OWN, COMPRISING ALL TIME AND SPACE – IT’S ETERNAL!” (CCC 826).
How can we attribute value to the many different ways we are connected to the world around us that is equal to the value attributed to grades and other individual measures of worth, which seem to have so much currency in our society? Maybe there are ways that we are doing this already. What can we celebrate and emphasize?
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